What do you do when everything falls? Everything you’ve worked for, suffered for, struggled to build. What happens when it all crashes down around you? It’s what I’m asking myself right now. Surely the only option is to rebuild. The real question is how do you rebuild? Do you remake what you had before but build it stronger, reinforce the weaknesses that made it fall, or do you build something entirely new? I’m getting tired of rebuilding the same thing over and over only for it to keep on falling. Maybe it will never last, will never stay strong. Maybe it will never stop falling.
This might seem very philosophical, or just completely nonsensical. I like to think a healthy bit of both. But maybe it’s time to contemplate building something new, take a risk, stop holding back and relying on what is safe and comfortable. If it isn’t secure then it isn’t as safe or comfortable as it may seem.
I can’t help but be bitter for all the time and suffering gone into building something that just falls at the turn of a breeze, however. So excuse me while I wallow for a while.